Friday, December 30, 2011

Gabriel's Birth: God's Miraculous Timing

We arrived at the hospital on time, noticing all the clean and fresh details of a facility that had only been open for 2 weeks.  Everything went as planned for the first hour, even though this aspect of preparing for delivery was all new to us.  At 6:30, my doctor checked on baby with a sonogram, and Gabriel had interestingly turned to breech.  (He had been transverse the day before.) 

The anesthesiologist then came in to give the epidural; he was finished by 6:45.  After I laid back down to await the upcoming procedure, the nurse began re-attaching the monitors.  At that point, she became very nervous and another nurse came in to assist.  They began turning me from side to side, saying the baby's heartrate had plummetted.  Everything went very quickly from that point.  I remember the nurse calling for my doctor and saying we would be having this c-section sooner than we thought. 

They rolled me down the hall, leaving Eric behind bc they weren't sure if the epidural would be effective enough so soon, thinking I might be put to sleep.  All this time, I remember begging the Lord to save Gabriel.  And the only verse I could recall was Philippians 4:7:

"Let your gentleness be made known to all men; the Lord is at hand."

"The Lord is at hand.  The Lord is at hand.  The Lord is at hand." 

Later, I remember the nurseanethesist asking me if I had been praying when they brought me in.  When I answered yes, (of course! what else could I do?!) she said, "I thought you must.  You were so calm."  That can only be the Lord's strength.

It was very scary.  The unknown of not having a full grasp on even how long Gabriel could survive.  Would they get him in time?  Thankfully, our doctor, who has now delivered all 7 of our bio babies, leaned around the drape and reassured me:  "Beck, everything is going to be OK." 

Eric was allowed in the room, and he sat down beside me just seconds before Dr. McK brought our precious baby boy into the world, snatching him from his perilous condition.  Gabriel Isaiah Hixon was born.  At 7:09 AM.  All in God's perfect timing. 

Had we been at home, we would have never known of his circumstance.  We would not have realized that he had finally turned again to vertex but compressed his cord.  We would not have known until we realized he was no longer moving.  It is overwhelming even now to consider what might have been. 

And if I had had my own way, I would never have been there for a scheduled c-section.  But my own "wisdom" is mere foolishness to God.  He can be trusted.  Even in that hallway that seemed so, so long between the pre-op and the operating room, my mind was trying to tell my heart that no matter what God did, no matter what He had written for our lives, it would be OK. 

I'm just so thankful that His "OK," his providence, included Gabriel's quick rescue and safe delivery.  We don't deserve one safe delivery, much less seven, and definitely not nine amazing blessings. 

The Lord is most assuredly at hand.

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

Introducing the Hixon 2011 1/2 Model. . . .

Gabriel Isaiah Hixon
December 2011
9 lbs. 10 oz.
22 inches

We are so thankful for little Gabriel and for the fact that the Lord would be gracious to us and bless us with this precious child.  He is God's handiwork and a testimony of God's timing from beginning to end of this pregnancy. 

As some of you may know, I discovered the news that I was expecting this little gift while we were in China receiving our other 2011 blessings (April of this year).  Yes, I was overwhelmed and wondering how I would ever do a pregnancy well while I was helping Jonathan and Josiah adjust and attach.  Yet, in our weakness, God is strong.  And throughout the past 8 months, I have seen time and time again how man's wisdom cannot compare to God's.

The majority of the pregnancy was uneventful and even easier than some in the past.  I never felt like it was interfering with the bonding process or adjustment period after the adoptions.  It wasn't until the last 2 months that I began to feel the toll of the pg and never really felt the "miserable stage."  (just really close ;)  All of this I attribute to God's grace.

The last few weeks proved a little more interesting bc Gabriel seemed to be fickle about which way he would turn.  This turned out to be bc of an excess amount of amniotic fluid.  Several factors resulted in our scheduling a c-section.  This would be a first for me, and my attitude was not shining about it.  But God always has a plan.

We woke up early to be at the hospital by 5:30 AM; the c-section was scheduled for 7:45.  Bc of my anxiety over the whole ordeal, I knew I should read Philippians 4:6 before leaving for the hospital.  I read it over and over, making sure I knew it by heart.  ;)  It was then I noticed Philippians 4:5:

"Let your gentleness be made known to all men; the Lord is at hand."

Now this was very convicting to me.  I knew my lack of trust in the Lord's plan was a very poor testimony, and this verse chastised me, showing me it made a mockery of the Lord's name to say I had faith but to not really trust Him in this, too.

I did not realize how much I would need this verse just 2 hours later. . . . . . . .

It's Me Again, Margaret

I know.  I have been a terrible blogger.  And it has been a terrible time to neglect a blog when the Lord has done so many wonderful things in our family's lives.  So I will try to catch up just a bit. . . . .